Peanut Butter & Jelly

So for any of you that know me you know that I have a slight obsession with Peanut Butter but I can't stand jelly - so I don't think I have actually had a PB & J sandwich but I know I wouldn't like it b/c it is the texture of jelly that does me in.

Anyways I am getting side tracked. This post actually has very little to do with Peanut Butter and Jelly - as I was scanning different blogs that I follow tonight I came across one where they referenced someone else blog and usually I don't click over to follow up on what they are referring to but this time I did and I am really glad I did - so I honestly can't take credit for anything I am writing as my own but it did get me started thinking. In the post that I read the writer referenced a story of one of her vacations with her family and how one of her daughters started up conversation with a women who had cancer. The daughter started talking to the women about how God makes everything in the world and how He has the whole world in His big hands, but how she (the daughter) doesn't think that God can make peanut butter & jelly sandwich's. The writer went on to write about how so often she believes that to be true in her own life - that God can save the world but can't take care of the little daily things that are going on in her own life.

This really hit home for me in so many ways right now - I know God is amazing and I know the scriptures to back it up but right now I am just having a hard time believing that they are true in my own life. I know God can part the sea, feed 5,000, and heal sick people, and I honestly believe it! But am just struggling with believing that in His big hands that He has time for little tiny me or that I even matter to Him. No worries friends I am clinging to the scriptures daily right now - it is just between not knowing where I am going to live but being pretty sure moving to my dad's is not a good option, my mom having places cut out of her head today, my grandfather not really getting any better, and several other little issues that I just don't feel comfortable spelling out on here. I guess you can say that I just feel like God's big hands don't have time to take care of the simple little issues in my life. So I guess you can say I am like the writers daughter I know God is amazing and I can see all that He has done not only in my life but in the world around me but yet I don't think He can do something as simple as make peanut butter & jelly sandwich - right now. It just seems like to much to ask Him to do - so my prayer is that I would just cling to God's truth that I know, and know that He has it all under control and it will all work out in His timing and it will work out like He planned it to.