Stillness

“Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalms 46:10

This is one of the many verses I have been clinging to lately in life as I have been forced to slow down literally with the boot and all on my foot. I wish I could say that I have embraced this time in my life, but I have fought it the whole way and probably in some ways still am. However, I have to admit that I am very thankful for this time in my life – okay you can all pick yourself up off the floor now. While I would much rather not be in a boot and being forced to slow down right now – last night threw the course of a couple of amazing conversations and a friends CR inventory I realized that if I hadn’t been forced to slow down I probably wouldn’t have realized how much I’ve changed and grown for the better in the past two years. I know I defiantly needed to see that right now in order to continue to grow because I have felt a lot lately like I am still struggling with the same temptations and stuck in the same old patterns that I can never seem to get out of, which is so frustrating! While I still have the same old insecurities – it has been neat to have the time to be able to reflect on how I am not that same person anymore. Now I realize I still am a “work in progress” it was neat to be able to see how God has really changed my heart and how He is still continuing to change my heart even today. Needless to say I am learning a lot right now – I am interested to see what the rest of my slowed down time while in my boot has in store for me. I think I might try and stop fighting having to slow down so hard and just go along for the ride and see what is in store, since I don't really have a choice anyways.