Riding Shotgun

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7

This is a verse I have had to repeat to myself over and over again in life and I find myself having to repeat it again right now. Over the past couple of days I have realized that I have become extremely anxious about some upcoming events/situations in life. While thankfully I have a peace and know that God has a plan for each of the events/situations when I look at them on an individual level but when I look at them as the bigger picture apart of my life I am extremely anxious. I think this has a lot to do with several of these events/situations are out of my control – meaning there is nothing I can do to affect the outcome, whatever is suppose to happen is going to happen. Which if you know me at all you know I am a person who likes to be in control.

Once I realized this I had to laugh at myself but then I was also frustrated with myself. I laughed at myself b/c how can I have a peace and know that God has a plan for these events/situations on an individual level as to how they will affect my life but not on the bigger level – that makes no sense whatsoever. I am frustrated because while I am trusting God on the individual level, I am most definitely not trusting Him and that he has a plan for how all of this is going to play out. I know He has a plan, and I have learned that His plan is so much better than my plan ever will be, but just because I can’t see His plan I am having a hard time believing that right now.

So right now I am just going to try enjoy riding in the passenger seat of the car, while God drives since I know this is the best option, even though I am struggling to keep my hands in my lap and off the steering wheel.