Speechless

Speechless is something I am usually not very often, so when it happens it is kind of a big deal and usually there is a pretty good reason. Well last Friday morning was one of those few times where I just have no words whatsoever. If I would have known how Friday was going to turn out I would have just stayed in bed or at least called in sick to work - I really don't think I am being dramatic on this one at all because I am still pretty speechless but I am trying best to explain at least why I am so completely speechless. Anyways Friday morning my boss got a phone call for an unexpected meeting with her new boss, and when she returned to our team she called me into the sample room - which usually means either you screwed something up so royally that she isn't going to yell at you in front of the team or you forgot to do something and she is going to tell you about it and doesn't want witnesses around or the third option is your being moved. The first words out of her mouth where, "Shawn, you're being moved!" okay so while part of me was momentarily excited because that meant that she would no longer be my boss after 14 very long months I was breaking free - a feat few accomplish. But then it hit me I hadn't interviewed for the promotion that I was up for yet so that this move wasn't a promotion. My boss went on to explain to me that I was moving to the contemporary area of career but that I would be taking on seven brands plus item planner trackers - YIKES! Enters I am completely speechless because I currently really only work on one brand and have spent a good portion of the last 14 months being completely swamped most of the time - so how in the world am I going to manage seven brands that I know nothing about. YIKES! No I didn't get anymore money, not that it would help in this situation but at least it might have lessen the blow a little. And to add to the shock value this change would take affect on Tuesday as in yesterday. My boss made sure to make it super clear that she expected me to completely the plans I was on before I moved to my new area - why am I not surprised she is crazy and has unrealistic expectations one final time.

Basically, I am completely overwhelmed and not sure how I can get it all done. All I can say is YIKES! I honestly feel like I am being set up for failure but who knows I have been able to pull off some pretty crazy things before in my life - so I guess it is time to dust off the old Super Shawn cape and tie it around my neck like I use too. I wish there were such a thing - even if it didn't really work it might at least make me feel a little better. The only thing I am able to cling to right now is a verse that a sweet friend actually had shared with me earlier in the week - Psalms 73:26. "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." So at least I am clinging to the one thing I can cling to but I am still really scared and overwhelmed about what the next few weeks and months will look like for me. I am not sure if I am suppose to rise above all of this and somehow be able to manage seven brands by myself or if this is just a swift kick in the rear towards something bigger and better that God has in store for me down the road - who knows only time prayer, wisdom and discernment will tell. But in the mean time I am just going to try and take baby steps and figure it out and just cling to truth.